30 July 2011

Facing rejections!

Recent events turns ugly when discussion comes into the picture! Maybe my stubborn character is the cause for everything, however, this is something i still cannot accept. There's no room for negotiation and i am expected to compromise in almost everything.. especially those that i cannot compromise at all. 

The fact that even after the fraud investment case he encountered just so recently. i objected him from investing into his friend's so called forum/webhosting for forex trading claiming to earn high profits within short period of time. He claimed that i was not supporting in everything he's doing and so i gived in eventually to let him do whatever he feel is right. Results comes out to be losing his entire investment to this so called close childhood friend he TRUSTED more than me. Haha although the amount is not much, but its painful enough an experience as we are not in good financial situations(the reason he become desperate to this scam offer). 

I used to be someone he seek opinion from, and i can sense that he take my advise seriously. Not anymore! Now anything little things his friend said is golden advise even if the result turns ugly, everything i say is just nagging and not being supportive. 1st is the investment, 2nd is a thai amblet that his friend said would bring better luck in things he do.. he choose his friend's advise/the amblet rather than me although i tell him i don't feel comfortable with this sort of things. 3rd, almost all of my friends know how much i cannot stand cruelty to animals as i treat their lives as equal as our own. He left me and walked away when i was traumatized by the sights of all the piercing through those baits use for fishing, crying like hell i ask him to accompany me but to no avail. I was angry and sad but i managed to persuade myself to behave nicely afterwards and try to patch things up. i admit i wasn't serious in this r/s in the beginning but now i really treasure it as from all those things he had done to me in the past touched me.

Woke up in the morning, gave him a call to tell him i actually miss him... sweet right? i know is normal, but its still sweet right? hahaha.... turns out...... he malign me for turning his alarm off, tell me his huihua credit is going to fine any staff who's late with fine. This HuiHua don't pay his staff any basic or OT.. give you a faulty almost scrap vehicle to drive which don't cover even a single cent for petrol or any repair cost if any parts went faulty. It seems to me like a blood-sucking company. Yes you get good take home pay for several months in the year when market is good whereby you have better sales. But... as long as you got sales, your pay is sure to be good if no matter which car dealer company you go to am i not right to say so? On top of that, some offers you basic, petrol allowance and etc.. It simply ridiculous for a company who offers no basic to come out with this kind of rules to follow!

Well my boyfriend rather be stupid to compromise to this ridiculous company and refered me as not supportive, what else can i say.. How do you expect me to support with ridiculous and stupid stuffs? Just like pushing you into the fire-pits? But since this is the way you want me to be, than i shall be... i shall not be concern and KPO about your thinking and decision, things that you think is beneficial never failed to be the things i think stupid. You want to let people ride on you than go ahead. I wish in time you will see why am i not being supportive, my effort is so unseen, is it just because i want to control you or is it for your own good.
 I feel lesser and lesser loved day by day, incidents by incidents. Its the way you react to me, not the things you buy for me that counts. If i was that materialistic than why should i be with you in the 1st place? I could just find a loaded partner who can provide me much better than you monetarily without much effort, unlike yours that have to go through a lot of planning to buy the gift. Do you even know its the effort that touched me rather than the price of your gifts. Its that effort that make me feel i am being treasured... will i feel that kind of effort again?