my presents...

MoM - A durian design durian cake and dinner with my whole family except Chantelle who went to school camping. (what a waste)

Sis and her husband - *this is even more sad case* A Sony Vivaz which is lost quite some time ago and a hongbao..

hubby - Nixon digital camera for now and Iphone 4G with contract signed under his name when it launch. 

My computer  - Not ascessible to facebook at all from yesterday till now. not even after i de-fragmented it

Went shopping with my mom in the noon at Marina Square and Suntec. Came back home for dinner with family and cake at my sis house. Play with the kids and some photo taking and videos of my cute nephew Maximilan dancing ( kawaii ). After everybody went to sleep or back home, me and raymond stayed back to accompany my sister play Monopoly.

At last we came home and had some chat, some discussion, some quarrel and bath and somebody say wan to wait for me to come out from bath but was snoring lazily when i was back.

dunno how to say liao... was good was bad too.. stoopid computer too old liao, quarrel haiz... nvm la i will get use to it. Anyway already found a way to lighten the quarreling by using typing instead of open my mouth to talk. Guess i am better off as a mute.. perhaps

My Birthday!

Haiz..... Dunno how to say about this birthday... Should be just another normal day for me...

I had my advance birthday present pretty early from my sis after i got into an armed robbery and my handphone being snatched away. My beloved sis bought me a brand new sony vivaz as present, but i lost it after using for less than a week and one month before my birthday my birthday gift was already lost! I got so upset that i hate myself so much and has got no mood to do anything at all!!!

I wonder if i can still really enjoy this coming birthday under this kind of mood.... Luckily i had Raymond by my side who encourages me to take up with morning job and get myself more busy and too tired to think about all this nonsense that is killing me deadly.

Although there are times we quarrel but yet he still give in to me afterall all this while. i wonder am i being too hard on him as my past relationship was in a mess and i just want someone who can tolerate all the nonsense so that i can feel the importance of myself or what? I really appreciate the thought of him to help me have a celebration as those who knows me well, they know how much i love to have one but didn't dare to think of it much as this loner here is always celebrating her bday with tears. Therefore is like, looking forward with fear that kind of feeling that i don't really know how to put it into words.. Grand celebration to me is like a dream ever since young... looking at photos of my sister having parties with envy as i do not have one during my childhood timess... but 希望越高, 失望就越大。

This is what i should know best however, i still cannot control myself of being snap between wanting to celebrate and not wanting.... i hate this kind of confusion i create for myself but am constantly creating it arrrgggggg......
But one this great this year is that i have a good boss that is very understanding and kind. Who offered me to take leave and spend my birthday with my family instead of going to work. I really am touched by it dramatically as most of u guys know that i am always in bad luck with jobss... All my ex-bosses are all babaric and not understanding... I think this might be the most wonderful gift life have given to me this year. Steve and Enqi... I hope that u both know how much i appreciate you guys... you both are GREAT~~!! Muackkzzzz ^_^

Getting normal? or.....

After recomendation from raymond chan to work in his company(morning job), i started to wake up early. Although yet i still sleep late hahaa...

As for now, my japanese lesson is getting more difficult and difficult although its only at Elementary 2, i already started to feel the stress of unable to catch up! Maybe because i am old liao, brain not functioning as well sob... and also maybe i am too tired working 2 jobs together with this part-time study!

Whatever the case is, i feel contented at least my time is filled up by learning new things every single day i work and study! Therefore, i guess all the hardwork and tiredness are all worthwhile. Hope that i am able to cope with it and experience what a normal person life could be while i am still at it... cheerssss`~~