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everything that happen today show that love really hurts and i am really hesitant to get myself a chance to be in the cycle of this pain again! Please forgive my selfishness...

i really dislike the feeling of missing you and i won't admit i still love you no matter what....

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Went to Atlantis with Terence, claudette and Terry and shift to Neverland after the arrival of Gerald! I was having so much fun when Harris. boyfriend of Claudette did not appear and make her so sad that she cried! I told her ' If ever a man deserve your tears, he will never make you shed for him. If he did, than he's not worth your tears afteralll......

Initially she tried to tell me not to trust any guys at all but in the end as his bf did not turn up, i became the one to console her... We girls are always trying to make people feel that we are strong while hiding our real sadness behind unless drugs eg. alcohol aids to release the heavy stone we are carrying behind our back! We have no other choice than to tell people we are strong and at the same time confirming to ourself that YES, we dun Need them afterall, we will eventually get ourself out of the shit and get started with a even better life be it with a new partner or just alone being single!  The thing is that how hurt we really feel inside we dun really show it out...


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For me! It's simple....or rather complicated hee....! I tend to hide the way i really really feel inside and expect my partner to feel the effort i put in without mentioning and all the contradicting reactions i acted out... Only by then i will know that the person is really putting in effort. You may say i am being very selfish as it is concentrated on me myself but i have to feel the effort you put in before i contribute mine as my heart, yes like many of them say is totally enclose! I cry at times when nobody can see although i seem strong or flirt to many of them! This is the only solution or way that i can think of to protect myself(barrier up)...

Lynnette's Birthday pre-celebratoion

Yesterday me, Lynnette and William went to Lunar for a mini pre-celebration of her birthday! It was such a pity that when the singer at lunar call out to her name, me and William were outside smoking and miss that scene...

Have to really thanks William for all the last minute suprises he help planning for my friend! Hmm... the cake taste really good but it's so creamy i can't help thinking of the amount of fats i'm taking while eating it haha... Anyway, hope Lynnette enjoyed her mini celebration we held for her yesterday.... Happy Birthday cheers.....

嫁誰都會後悔

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女人其實嫁誰都會後悔，因為我們都是有缺點的人

女人其實嫁誰都會後悔？這篇也是經典!

男人總是強調自己的「夢想」，女人擇男也有個人條件。

比如男的要有前途、要成熟、要疼妳……

嫁給哪種男人比較好？比較不會痛罵自己瞎了眼睛？讓我們一個個看過來：

一、嫁給有錢的男人
食有魚，出有車，豪華別墅，錦衣麗服，珠圍翠繞，暗香瀰漫，這種日子應該很不錯的吧？可是，男人掙錢需要時間和精力，有錢的男人不是錙銖必較的商人，就是忙於應酬的權貴。
商人的腦子裡充滿利益，每天算計投入和產出，缺乏溫馨。古早時候的那個江州司馬早已看透了這種男人的本質－－重利輕別離。

權貴男人的腦子裡充滿關係，每天衡量著該和誰近，該和誰遠，缺乏柔情。有錢的男人往往沒時間，會將女人冷落一邊。嫁給這種男人的女人，等於嫁給電視機，嫁給美容院，要忍受長久的精神上的空虛，空有一份表面上的華麗，內心的苦澀有誰知道？

二、嫁給帥哥

顯然是自取滅亡。帥哥就算有心一生只愛你一人，也頂不住別的女人不管不顧的愛心奉獻。帥哥長的帥，艷遇來的快，快的叫你斬不盡殺不絕，春風吹又生，然後你的婚姻就成了一場你方唱罷我登場的鬧劇。

三、嫁給有閒的男人

每天都有人陪伴，他事情很少，記性好，你們的結婚紀念日，甚至你的生日，他都會記得一清二楚。他每天按時回家，還做得一手好菜，願意陪你逛商場，很會教育孩子。你每天生活在他的包圍之中，應該了無遺憾了吧？不，這種男人往往能力有限，沒有很多的錢，你必須千辛萬苦和他一起打拼，才能獲得一份溫飽生活。

看到別的女人養尊處優，年過四十依然面容姣美，十指纖纖，而你年紀輕輕，已經皮膚粗糙，玉手變形，就會不甘心－－別人怎麼能嫁個「鑽石男人」，自己怎麼嫁了個破銅爛鐵？

四、嫁給會說甜言蜜語的男人

你的心情會格外舒暢，這種男人聰明心細，善於發現女人的美。你換了一個髮型，換了一件衣服，甚至換了一種牌子的口紅，他都會及時發現，並馬上讚美。他會別出心裁地誇獎你透明的耳垂，誇獎你渾圓的腳踝，你會在這種被人欣賞的感覺中陶醉－－因為有些美你自己都未發現。

可是，你應該清醒一下，這種男人也很善於發現除了你之外的其他女人的美。他會把甜言蜜語說給很多女人聽，你甚至都不知道你是第幾個聽到他甜言蜜語的人。這種男人很危險，一不小心就會在外面豎起幾面「彩旗」，在情感上與別人「分一杯羹」，你會內心充滿痛苦和恥辱的。

五、嫁給樸實拙訥的男人

你儘管可以放心，他對你忠心耿耿，毫無二心，對身邊擦肩而過的美女絕對可以目不斜視。可是，這種男人往往遲鈍得可怕，你換了一雙新款的鞋子一周了，他都沒有發現；你問他塗粉色指甲油好還是淺紫色指甲油好，他通常會一臉茫然。

嫁給這種缺乏情趣的男人，你會覺得自己的女性之美形同虛設。

六、嫁給才子

這事怎麼說呢？先把才子分為「出人頭地」與「懷才不遇」兩種。前者的各種翹楚有徐志摩、郁達夫，他們的愛情婚姻都轟動一時，可是結果不甚美妙。才子佳人的組合太旖旎，就會折福。懷才不遇的才子最好別嫁，嫁了也是陪他一起譴責上蒼無眼、小人當道、時運不濟。懷才不遇者都有股怨氣，怨的久了、深了，人也就陰暗了。別叫我找實例，因為他們都已被殘酷的生活所埋沒。

七、嫁給專業人士

好像不錯，比如律師醫生，婚後遇到什麼事情都有人護航。這類人較有素質，一般不會發生秀才遇見兵有理說不清的悲劇。可他們通常都很忙，半夜要出診，假期不見人，而且可能不浪漫，有一種嚴謹的職業病，把你一個人困在婚姻裡哀嚎。

八、嫁給教師

他們很難有陞遷機會，不大會給你驚喜。其工作方式就是從低年級向高年級爬，然後直線下跌，週而復始，樂此不疲。他們的優點是每年會有三個月可以做家庭婦男，並且免費為子女做家庭教師。

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你也許會說，嫁給既有錢又有閒，既有情趣又有忠貞不渝的男人，肯定不會後悔。

是這樣的，但是，世間沒有這麼完美的男人。

即使有，我們也配不上－－因為我們自身不夠完美。

因此，嫁給誰都後悔，我們只能守著一份凡俗的婚姻，誰都不能倖免－－因為我們都是有缺點的人。

Legion and Jap ktv

Jeff is going for his bohemian today, so me and lynnette celebrated his last day in singapore with him by watching Legion at Cathay Cineplex... It seems wonderful in the beginning but the ending was abit crappy! After the show, i brought Lynn to meet up with Seidoh-san at cuppange plaza, the 'little-japan' in singapore... It was also my 1st time going to a japanese Ktv! Amazed at the amount of japanaese song they have there but i can't read sob :'(! Really hope the day that i can read and speak jap fluently asap!!! After Seidoh-san send me home, we chat awhile downstair......

As i was walking home, i experienced for the 1st time of my life nearly fainted.....! My vision so blurry, follow by a total black-out. I can't see anything and feels so terrible that i sweat as if i was in the rain... Guess my body is getting from bad to worse. After this incident, i won't be surprise if i just collapsed out of no reason one day... haha

Anorexia nervosa

Heard my thoughts for dieting was actually an illness... went for a search and found out it really is an illness!!! Never thought this can be an illness too.. 


Anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by extremely low body weight, distorted body image and an obsessive fear of gaining weight.

• Refusal to maintain body weight at or above a minimally normal weight for age and height (e.g. weight loss leading to maintenance of body weight less than 85% of that expected; or failure to make expected weight gain during period of growth, leading to body weight less than 85% of that expected).
• Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though underweight.
• Disturbance in the way in which one's body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight.
• Amenorrhea (at least three consecutive cycles) in postmenarchal girls and women. Amenorrhea is defined as periods occurring only following hormone (e.g., estrogen) administration.

Anorexic eating behavior is thought to originate from an obsessive fear of gaining weight due to a distorted self image and is maintained by various cognitive biases that alter how the affected individual evaluates and thinks about their body, food and eating. 


People with anorexia nervosa also have other psychological difficulties and mental illness. Clinical depression, obsessive compulsive disorder,substance abuse and one or more personality disorders may be the most likely conditions to be comorbid with anorexia. High-levels of anxiety and depression are likely to be present regardless of whether they fulfill diagnostic criteria for a specific syndrome.

Anorexia is thought to have the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder, with anywhere from 6-20% of those who are diagnosed with the disorder eventually dying from related causes. The suicide rate of people with anorexia is also higher than that of the general population

This song is awesome.... love it

Finally enrolled!!

I've been wanting to sign up for Japanese language class ever since young, one of the reason stopping me to do so is that my mother always think that its useless and don't give me her support! Now, finally she give me her support and confident that i need so i went and sign up for the class TODAY!! The class starts from 8th February. I am really excited! Can't wait till the day i can speak Japanese language fluently....

今天和许多老朋友见了面, 当被问情感上的事时不禁感到一股悲伤. 哎~ 总是觉得无论我怎么的改变, 那个人永远都看不到! 不知道是我没有用还是我根本就不值得他人珍惜呢? 每当有人告诉我, 他喜欢我之类的话, 都让我觉得很没有信心. 每次都是费尽心思的对我好, 告诉我我在他心目中有多特别可贵等等的, 而当我慢慢的对他付出感情的时候又打退堂鼓... 我那已经是伤痕累累的心真的无法再承受任何的伤害了.. 一碰即碎! 现在的心已经碎得无法挽救了吧.....

一次背叛, 与我的好朋友在背后相见.. 让我学会男人这东西嘛, 反正他看久会厌腻不如就让他到外面去玩, 睁一支眼闭一支眼....
一次失踪, 让我发觉就算我再怎么让步, 会离开的你还是留不住... 同时我也知道我已经对感情不抱任何的希望, 因为只要再一次的受伤, 很可能我永远都站不起来..
一次的错误撮和, 让我感觉到害怕再被伤害而后退, 他用最温柔体贴的形态打开了我关闭的心, 让我错觉那是被爱的滋味, 当我打开心怀放手去爱的时候再狠狠的把我的心撕裂....

我对男人彻底失望了. 真想成为没心的人!
我不知道男人说的话哪句真哪句假, 所以选择全都不信, 方能安全脱身.
男人太没良心了! 怎么能够狠心得再你为他付出感情, 最容易受伤, 最脆弱的时候才选择离你而去, 给你最最大的伤害... 我无语了...

why do i feel afraid?

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Why am i so afraid at the sight of him when i saw him yesterday? Never thought that i would see him when i go out drinking.... Felt so sorry for spoiling their mood! But i really felt extremely nervous and shy and aiya... very confusing thoughts and feeling just rushed up into my mind at that moment, or rather that whole night after that..

Turns out my reaction is to runaway from that scene pulling ryan with me.. and he called me telling me he saw me turning around and walk away... When we broke up we said that we are still friend and he treated me as a friend, but how come i don't dare to face him...

I'm so useless....




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2009 christmas @ Genting

A family trip to Genting was how i spend this Christmas! It was fun and yet disappointing at the same time.... Overall... i still enjoy the trip even though i was on fever during some of the days.....

My dream is to get myself the guts to sit on this ride.... but.... bo guts leh... standing below it already make my leg tremble......

The Lamborghini parking outside Genting hotel... Sg car... who are those drivers?

Quarreled with my boyfriend over there and that was the last time i see him... well.... haiz...

你了解女孩吗?

其实很多男孩子都不知道，



女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。



实很多男孩子都不知道，



女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。



其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，



也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。



你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。



你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，



在别人面前她都是淑女。



你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，



让她即使生气也不会超过2天。



而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。



　　

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。



于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。



于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

　　

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。



因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。



因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；



而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。



你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。



你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。



她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，



因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。



她会很矜持，

她会很骄傲，

她会很冷淡，

她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。



你了解女孩吗?

　　

请你张开你的耳朵，

也请你打开你的心，

去听她心里真正的呼唤，

而不是她嘴里的口是心非。



她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，



你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。



如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。





在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。



可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；



爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。



你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。



不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。



你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。



不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，



更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。



要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。



越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——



无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。



请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。



她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　

　　　

请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。



也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，



只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。



那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。



也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。



她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。