i really dislike the feeling of missing you and i won't admit i still love you no matter what....

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Went to Atlantis with Terence, claudette and Terry and shift to Neverland after the arrival of Gerald! I was having so much fun when Harris. boyfriend of Claudette did not appear and make her so sad that she cried! I told her ' If ever a man deserve your tears, he will never make you shed for him. If he did, than he's not worth your tears afteralll......

Initially she tried to tell me not to trust any guys at all but in the end as his bf did not turn up, i became the one to console her... We girls are always trying to make people feel that we are strong while hiding our real sadness behind unless drugs eg. alcohol aids to release the heavy stone we are carrying behind our back! We have no other choice than to tell people we are strong and at the same time confirming to ourself that YES, we dun Need them afterall, we will eventually get ourself out of the shit and get started with a even better life be it with a new partner or just alone being single!  The thing is that how hurt we really feel inside we dun really show it out...


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For me! It's simple....or rather complicated hee....! I tend to hide the way i really really feel inside and expect my partner to feel the effort i put in without mentioning and all the contradicting reactions i acted out... Only by then i will know that the person is really putting in effort. You may say i am being very selfish as it is concentrated on me myself but i have to feel the effort you put in before i contribute mine as my heart, yes like many of them say is totally enclose! I cry at times when nobody can see although i seem strong or flirt to many of them! This is the only solution or way that i can think of to protect myself(barrier up)...