lonely christmas & new year

 Sometimes i just feel that i am born to be a nun... Relationship are just not meant for me! No matter how many times i try to give it a shot, it always end up the same outcome ----> me hurt.

I do believe that i already try my very best in sustaining in every relationship i have, no matter it is that they do not have time for me or they just completely ignored my existence, i try to tell myself they are not avoiding me but just busy over their stuff at the moment. They will get back to me once they are done i assure myself! But it disappoints me without fail all the time!
This time round, he make me feel thtat with me around, he is under so much stress! That he cannot even stand a moment with me... All he want is just to runaway from my sight, as far as possible~~ This is so terrible for me. I don't know should i just keep quiet and let things continue or should i do him a favour and let him be free from the sight of me. So that he can lessen his burden from his work and other stress stuffs and do not need to worry about avoiding me...

I am really suffering! If i fail this relationship 1 more time, i might not be able to stand up again, not because i give in too much, but because i have totally no trust in myself! I will lose all my confident which i do not really have already at the moment.. i'm really torn into pieces, shattered apart... covered with blood...

My only wish is for him to realise how much damage he had done to me before i'm really done for, since he claim he's still in love with me(although i dun feel the presence of his love no more). All i need is a little bit more care and concern that i can feel from the depth of his heart. Am i asking too much?

Jacky and Terence's BirdDay

Went to look for Terence on his Bday celebration... When i arrived there he was like drinking water and etc outside the pub looking utterly full....


Look at his face! So unwillingly being force by his friends to drink wahaha...

And introducing the 'stupid stupid kangaroo' of WG production below!

Poor guy 21st birthday kena sabo jumping like a kangaroo in Mind's cafe from 1 end to the other!!

Never thought after 'Thomas the Kangaroo' there will be another man-kangaroo once again... I'm loving it~~

Clever dick

A rich, lonely widow decides she need a man in her life - so she places an advert in the local paper. it reads:
  Rich widow looking for kind man to share life and fortune with. Must never beat me up or run away, and has to be great in bed.

For several months, her phone rings off the hook and applications pour through her letterbox, but none seem to match her qualifications. Then one day the doorbell rings. She opens the door to find a man, with no arms and no legs, lying on the welcome mat.

"Who are you?" she asked, perplexed. "And what do you want?"
"hi," he replies, "your search is over, for i'm the man of your dreams. I've got no arms to beat you up and no legs so i can't run away."

"Hmm," she says, unconvinced. "What make you think you are so great in bed?"

He looks at her smugly. " Well," he grins. "I rang the doorbell didn't i?"

How to be happy?

Seriously can anyone teach me to be happy from the bottom of the heart? Why am i always feeling down?

I feel unhappy when things things happen not the way i want it to be, when i'm supposed to feel sad, when i have nothing to feel, and also when i'm happy...

I thought hanging around people that are happy-go-lucky can make me feel better but i'm wrong! In the end, they tell me my negativity is pulling their mood down!! I guess no one likes to be with me, a person who don't know how smile and make them agitated this way in the long run too... No one wants to be like me... this failure.. 

Is this the reason why all my exs leave me eventually? Because i'm not deserve being love.... I really dislike this feeling of people who i struggle through my own doubts and finally trust eventually leave me claiming that our characters doesn't suit one another... It just turn out to be i'm right! That i'm not suitable for anyone out there....... Then don't come near me showing me concern and care in the 1st place. Don't tell me to give it a try , don't tell me that i'll be treasured! I don't need all these lies and i also can't take it....