Sometimes i just feel that i am born to be a nun... Relationship are just not meant for me! No matter how many times i try to give it a shot, it always end up the same outcome ----> me hurt.
I do believe that i already try my very best in sustaining in every relationship i have, no matter it is that they do not have time for me or they just completely ignored my existence, i try to tell myself they are not avoiding me but just busy over their stuff at the moment. They will get back to me once they are done i assure myself! But it disappoints me without fail all the time!
This time round, he make me feel thtat with me around, he is under so much stress! That he cannot even stand a moment with me... All he want is just to runaway from my sight, as far as possible~~ This is so terrible for me. I don't know should i just keep quiet and let things continue or should i do him a favour and let him be free from the sight of me. So that he can lessen his burden from his work and other stress stuffs and do not need to worry about avoiding me...
I am really suffering! If i fail this relationship 1 more time, i might not be able to stand up again, not because i give in too much, but because i have totally no trust in myself! I will lose all my confident which i do not really have already at the moment.. i'm really torn into pieces, shattered apart... covered with blood...
My only wish is for him to realise how much damage he had done to me before i'm really done for, since he claim he's still in love with me(although i dun feel the presence of his love no more). All i need is a little bit more care and concern that i can feel from the depth of his heart. Am i asking too much?
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